One of my good friends died the other day in one of the most horrifying ways possible. my heart has stopped and im just incredibly sad. we had some great times and some fucked up times togeteher but he always made the best of it and was an amazing soul. Doug Vickery.. YOu will always be in my heart. I will hold on to the memories forever and even though im depressed and shocked over his i know you would want me and all of your buds to keep partying, skating and having fun . Whitby will never be the same without you. LOve you doug forever <3 DOUG E FRESSH RIP
RIP <3 <3 <3
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started my new clinic today! i was supposed to start on the 27th by being a little sneaky my doctor set me up today! i am now on level 5 (5 carries) so i only have to go to this clinic twice a week which is decent but my next appointment is next Friday which is amazing!!! then he will probably help me lower my dose to 50 (i like the idea because its a better number to help calculate my medication when i put the drink i save for emergencies or to sell to w/ding people i know.. which is not many at all but they have friends and such) Dr. Mark will hopefully give me at least 7-10 carries during next fridays appointment… he said i can get up to 20. This is already starting to make my life SO much easier not to mention i can go out and do things now w.o worrying i have to go to the cllinc! i am also going to ask him if i can get my doses cut down into two (morning and afternoon 25mg +25mg ) instead off a full 50 which will allow me to start just taking the 25mg bottle and experiment too see how much i need before i get sick over what period of time and such because their are allot of different factors.. butt i am really excited over the deal of self tapering to begging with so that i can get started with my recovery never worry about the permissibility of getting sick cause if i asked my dr to constantly lower my dose and its not strong enough id end up being sick for no reason when i could have just done what i do no! lol also wanted to mention that today 2 interesting things happened. first of i went to OATC to say goodbye and thank everyone… but once i went to the counter they had methadone and 2 carries waiting for me.. so i took them . I know its double doctoring but i dont think this will get me in any trouble considering its my last day there today “technically” its sick even though they made me take a second dose today (so im possibly high but definitely nodding out due to taking 110mg instead of the usual 55) but im selling the two to a friend for $60 which is so cool cause ive been SO broke lately! if each of my metha is worth $30 (not sure what street prices are here) then ill be very very happy! because im sure i can just sell them so someone like joel for a cheaper price and make free money! because my insurance covers my methadone 100%. stoked!!!! and sooo high on opiates ! realized it feels good but its reallyy nothing special AT ALL.
